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I was talking about passion…

September 22, 2011 Leave a comment

I will endeavor to refine what I said to someone earlier today about passion.  If they read this please don’t be upset that I decided to share some of it with the rest of the world.

So say you have some interests that I think may be or become your passion(s).  Your interest in (X) has inspired you to go to school to study it more intensely.  I don’t know if you would broaden your view of it to say that it is something you are passionate about.   This isn’t a secret… finding the meaning to life is the same thing as full filling those passions.  knowing what your passions are can be gained from experience.    If you feel there is nothing you could say you are passionate about then why don’t you experience the world some more?   You might find more things you can be passionate about.   If you cannot be motivated to even go out then you are giving up before you even try.   Which will make me sad that you never found your meaning to life.


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last night then this morning…

September 19, 2011 Leave a comment

Last night there was some form of fire in the apartment building I live in.  The toxic smoke released has not been good for my mood, heart, lungs or allergies.  So last night I went to sleep with a terrible headache.  Then woke up feeling impending stroke.  WHY would trained professional firemen let people back into a building that needs toxic smoke cleared out first?  Better question why was I dumb enough to go back even though I know the building will need more time to have the air cleared.   Oy.  This flash of genius made me flash back to what quite a number of people in my life have also questioned.

It was a tough decision to make years ago.  I would rather not take organs provided by someone else just so I can live a little longer.  That and so long as I live and love I want to live and love with my own original heart.  Over the years I have been reassured that my choice has been a good choice.  Today has been another reassurance that the pain I am feeling is proof.  Unfortunately this has also made me review my lists of thing I want to do before I die.  The first list which due to the large amount of sexually based items on it cannot be posted here (there is 12 items out of 100 from that list that I could post but I feel that since that list is done and more of a private matter to myself that it shouldn’t be posted).

That being said it has never stopped me from encouraging people to live life to its fullest and to not give up hope for something (or anything) better.

So I found it strange that I literally bumped into someone who took my advice and left for a year.  They visited south america and mexico.  After 7 or 8 years of seperation they got re-acquainted with their family.  Family they thought did want to have anything to do with them anymore.  They were right but a visit to confirm this was in order.  They were actually quite happy they did as it deepened the belief that could do without them.

So this person offered me a job that my boyfriend would vehemently tell me to turn down.  I will bump into them later and am tempted.  The question is whether I should even mention this opportunity to my boyfriend.

I also looked for work online (again) this morning.  Nothing to report on that front.  I also looked myself up (my real name).  the other people with my name have quite a variety of occupations and accomplishments.   There are doctors, sports players (soccer, baseball, hockey), a gynecologist, a award winning film professional, a musician, a couple artists, and a couple varying religion priests.   Which made me feel sad that my actual profile was no where to be found (even my old modelling/acting page is gone).   Not even any of my old addresses/phone numbers… sigh…

I have disappeared in/to the public eye.  I have mixed intense feelings over this.  Living a quiet life is something people yearn for.  I live for and because of my passion.  Even though this has garnered a mixed attention nothing specific to my real actual name can be found.

Now onto the other purpose to this blog.  I have been steadily working on the images from digimon story lost evolution.  I just checked the progress on itadaki street ds’s text translation as I will be switching to itadaki once the translation reaches a certain point.  I have been pushing myself because of this.

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Itadaki street ds the matrix again

September 6, 2011 Leave a comment

I thought that maybe it would be easier to write something to interpret the matrix stuff involved in Itadaki.  I still have no real idea how it works I just know that I need to work with them.  The reason this is important is that these matrices are being used for placement of graphics as vectors.   I need to do what the game does with them.  Either as a seperate program or as a plugin for another one.

Okay it gets the matrices from the files then stores them in X memory.  Uses the matrices in that memory for stuff (not necessarily for graphics, but there is some use for/of it).   More specific either used through some form of math or another matrix which rotates it or multiplies it, for use as vectors for 3d graphics.

There are several routines find 2by2, find 3by3, find 4by3, find 4by4, set 2by2 to 4by4, set 3by3 to 4by4, set 4by3 to 4by4 (that 3by3 to vectors),  rotate the y of the 3by3,  set 4by4 to 4by3, some vector addition and subtraction, etc.

What I need to do is:

set a routine which identifies what type of a matrix is being used.  Then use that matrix to identify the vectors in question.  Use those vectors on another file to display it properly.

There will be more; later.


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September 3, 2011 Leave a comment

Inazuma Eleven 2 – subject title screens (ssssssss)

I finally gave in and took the time to work on the title screens.  They were a pain and I don’t really like how the “threat of the blizzard Invasion” part turned out.  I am almost done.  There is some random stuff on the bottom that I should work on.  I feel though that this might be a waste of time.  Mainly due to not liking how it has turned out.  If I go back it will be 8 screens worth of editing.

AGAIN… sigh….

The thing is I  could just replace them all with what I want to put instead of working with what was there before and with an edited “Inazuma Eleven” graphic from the first IE1.

This could just be the conservator in me.  Apparently the training where they ground in keeping as much of the original (object/work) has slipped into other parts of my life.

May be why I am loath to change my semi comfortable situation….

Anyways this is how I am.  Before the conservation schooling I would not have though twice about just doing it completely over and completely different.  Now though, if there is any chance I can respect the original work by keeping as much of it as possible, I will.

My job on the farm, the man I used to work with would often laugh at the new farmers.  “Why are you buying a completely new one when the old one isn’t even broken.  Don’t fix or replace something until you have to.  If it’s not broken what are you fixing?”

I think that has applied through a large portion of my life.

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